The Consuming Life part three

Isn’t that beautiful?

I think that but I don’t want it. I mean in one final gasp televised where I get some glory sure, but on a daily ongoing basis to largely undeserving friends. Friends like Jesus had who don’t understand him, who will abandon him, who will deny and even betray him, heck no. I mean the idea is beautiful, the execution is, well, repellent. Oh I want to be that person deep and passionately on the inside, but the desire to be seen at that person is too often equally compelling.

The place this laying down of life love really begins is with my friend Jesus. When I become a person who is willing, consciously volitionally able to but Jesus before myself, it is the beginning of laying down of life love. It really isn’t until I can daily, again and again die to my will and wants and live for someone else, for Jesus that I know is fully loving, faithful and worthy that I can truly consider living this way for my friends. Living for friends who like me are less loving, less faithful and less worthy.

Lord may I live more for you, so I can live more like you for those I want to love and those you want me to love and live for. Give me greater love. Amen.